Wednesday, June 29, 2005 | 7:24 AM

We'd hit the bottom
I thought it was my fault
And in a way I guess it was
I'm just now finding out
What it was all about

We moved to the west coast
Away from everyone
She never told me that you called
Back when I was still I was still in love

But I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye, I tried"
And I twisted it wrong just to make it right
I had to leave myself behind
And I've been flying high all night
So come pick me up I've landed

The daily dramas
She made from nothing
So nothing ever made them right
She liked to push me
And talk me back down
Until I believed I was the crazy one
And in a way I guess I was

When I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye, I tried"
Treading the sea of her troubled mind
I had to leave myself behind
Now it's "bye-bye. Goodbye, I tried"

If you wrote me off
I'd understand it
'Cause I've been on
Some other planet S
o come pick me up
I've landed

And you will be so happy to know
I've come alone
It's over

I opened my eyes and walked out the door
And the clouds came tumbling down
And it's "bye-bye. Goodbye, I tried"
Down comes the reign of the telephone czar
It's ok to call
I will answer for myself
Come pick me up
I've landed

Wednesday, June 15, 2005 | 3:22 PM

in i comp room now..
doing the japan video..
haha..sigh.. 9 july is open house..
stress.

actually i'm supposed to be in the plane now..
but we missed the flight.
total nightmare la..
mum keeps on saying it's God's will..
but i think ya.. God wants to teach her a lesson
she's alwaes late..
marianne u better watch out..
hahahaha..

ya so she wanted to cancel the trip
then this morning i woke up at about 10.30..
then at about 11 plus she told me she got a flight out
early tomorrow morning..
the flight's at 6
wah..better not be late man..

the flight we missed was also at 6
but we arrived at 5.28..
then the person told us the flight was closed.
at the point in time i was just like..
ok. like...
stone la.
i mean..all i could think was wad ppl said
i couldn't really form my own thoughts
like..i didn't noe wad i wanted.
all i noe was that i was pretty brain dead la.
ya..lack of sleep i think..

ha..oh well
thank God we got the flight man
He has it all taken care of.

so i went to school todae at 12 plus..
saw my team!?!?!?!
they wre quite shocked to see me..
cos i told them i'm going away..
but i was quite surprised to see them also
it's like.. they were supposed to start trg at 8.30!
hmm...and they left so late.
think they went parkway to get shinpads and black socks..

oh well..they're locking up now..
gtg!!!
byebye!!!

don't miss me haha..
oh mic and jove shush also!
winx!

| 1:48 PM

I draw your shadow.
forming on the pink-hued wall.
blown lights.
and hardened wax.

i'm all alone.

Your fingers hold me.
and pull my head up as i'm sinking
gasping for breath
and so confused.

my insides screaming.

every minute you are somewhere else.
and breaking my heart again.
with possibilities i choose not to think about

missing you.

not knowing how to cope
without your traffic lights
blinking to save me.
running in circles not caring.

afraid to understand.
this is you uncovering me.
all tangled up and folded.
all my pieces.
you are setting me right.

and maybe you know so.

you are completion.
a blur
and colours blend.


- my pink and white lava lamp blew :(
now the wax cant move anymore..
think the voltage too high..
hope to get a new bulb..
wish me luck! :)

| 1:44 PM

i am so disgusted.
i feel soooo violated man

just now at bedok south hawker
after dinner
i was looking at live frogs
and my dad was taking toothpicks

THENN.
i felt this brush la.
against my butt!?!?!
then i turned around and saw this sicko

wah lao!!!!
pervert la!
and he was walking in that smug way
like da lao ban liddat

then i was like shocked la k
then i looked at the gap
it's not as if it was damn squeezy
there was so much space lor!

AARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH.
yuck yuck yuck

then i followed him to the lift lobby and
sttttaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrreeeeeddddd
at him
i stared at him damn fiercely man..
and he got the cheek to turn back and look at me somemore
wah LAO.
and give me that look.

AHHHH.
sick man.

should have just followed him up and like
tell him i'll report him or sth.
HA.

asshole.
URGH.

| 9:43 AM

kind of down with a cold now.
hmmm..not sure why
maybe it's the late nights.
yesterday i was super duper depressed.
why?
because.
BECAUSE.
coach wants me to be goalie!
..like...i mean.
like.. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
like.
NOBODY joins soccer to be GOALIE ok
no offence la but unless u are gifted in that particular area
u DO NOT join to be goalie.
*piang*
that was my heart, btw.
so i was like trying to tell him that i'm too short
and also trying very hard to express my shock and disbelief
and my pain..but he was like quite enthu abt it he was like..
'under my training you will become veeeri fit!!!!'-.-
ok i'm glad that he wants me for team la ok
but..ARRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.
tell me do u feel my pain?
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.
but do u noe actually 'captain' actually didn't want to put VIPers in?
as in like.. she didn't even CONSIDER us la
audrey's not in com team so she can't put her in la
but HEY. what crap k?
'i picked based SOLELY on attendance.'
YAHH. right.then coach asked her to put both of us in
and he asked her ' u mean VIP can't take part in the competition?'
and she gave some 'oh i thought u wanted the blah blah blah..'
i mean..can tell la.
there's always this certain amt of biasness.
like.. think most ppl are bu shuang us u noe?
cos we have 4 years and they have only 2
and ya.. i mean i GUARANTEE i come for more training than alot of ppl who were selected la
some of the ppl i haven't seen for like.. what?3 weeks?!?!
and even coach was like referring to us - ' these ppl are always here wad..'
seriously..CRAP la.
just cos we're VIP.
that's why i rather ppl not noe i'm one.
not that i'm not proud of it or wadeva
but because the world isn't fair.
(eh all the above stuff is private and shushh k)

anyway..i bought my boots!!!
:)
it's some sooper long name la
but some PPulsion thingy
$111.
the 'beckham' version costs $190..
it was the last pair in my size that time went with miah to see then i didn't buy
but i reserved for a day cos the shopkeeper was like
'weekend alot of ppl..'
ha.in the end was it sold?
cheh..ah well.. that means it's meant for me la.
haha :)

there's the radiate camp going on now..hmm..dunno that time i talked to sam..
there seems to be lots of seminars and stuff..so..oh well.. it's ending on the 16th
but..i'm leaving tomorrow.
orlando new york canada
and i'll be back on the 27th.
when school starts
so i most prob won't be going on the first day.
haiyaa.. i haven't done my hw!!!
and haven't studied!!!
crap i'd better get my notes ready man..

oh! jiayi anne and daryl darren janice and mark and jared!
shush abt the 'ahem' k..wanna give ppl surprise and see their reaction..so far the best reactions have been
1) daryl-hyperventilation
2)mark
3)jiayi
hahahaha..mark couldn't talk for like.. dunno how long..
sigh..it's been so long since i updated
there is so much to say, yet nothing i can really say?:)
oh well

will be hoping to do lots of shopping in america
haha..
'To have an empty bag is to have failed'
- Myself, Japan trip


my hands are small i know but they're
not yours.
they are my own
but they're not yours
they are my own and
i am never broken.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005 | 1:32 AM

*BIG sigh*
just finished ok not JUST but ya
finished training.. quite on the dot i must say
haha maybe coach go meet his gf..haha
ah. in class now.. just now 2 hockey players were here
wah everyone always comes in to use our class
but thanks to them now some reeli good music is playing on our system
live365.com
punky reggae radio
wooh..


ah well..waiting for mr. shannon chan now..
we're gonna do the video
of our..
JAPAN TRIP!!!

yay!
japan trip..
ah! so many memories..so litle time

oh my god i stink so much now
and i forgot to bring extra clothing!
ahhh!
nvm..brought extra pants

hmm...feel like going out man
wah shannon is a NAG man
lalalalalalala
can some one pls read my blog and like..
ask me go out
i'm so BORED....