GAMBATTE
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 | 10:38 AM
i tried to discover, a little something to make me greener
oh baby refrain, from breaking my heart
i'm so in love with you, i'll be forever blue
i'm so angry with myself because i didn't wake up at 1.30 am to study.
i can't remember if i got up to stop the alarm but the fact is i gained consciousness around 7 plus
and had the 'oh shit' feeling.
if only i had started immediately after my bath
but there was this big fat lizard in the room and i couldn't bring myself to sit there
so my mother used the com, and she takes a million years cos she will just fall asleep while typing emails.
thus i went to take a little nap
and as a result......
so today, i will finish the VJ Math Promo Paper (saved it for the finale)
my math is ok now, i think.
it's just geography that i owe an apology. so
i will finish up my Urban Geog (I'm left with Reurbanisation)
i will read my old notes on Human and Physical Geog
i will have a math tuition hat trick at 8
i will sleep at 12 (latest) and
most importantly, i accept the consequences of my actions.
Forget your sadness, anger, grudges and hatred. Let them pass like smoke caught in a breeze. You should not deviate from the path of righteousness; you should lead a life worthy of a man. Don't be possessed by greed, luxury, or your ego. You should accept sorrows, sadness and hatred as they are, and consider them a chance for trial given to you by the powers...a blessing given by nature.
- Gambatte, Masaaki Hatsumi
that you give me no reason,
you're making me work so hard
that you give me no that you give me no soul
i hear you calling
oh baby please,
give a little respect
to me
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 | 10:38 AM
i tried to discover, a little something to make me greener
oh baby refrain, from breaking my heart
i'm so in love with you, i'll be forever blue
i'm so angry with myself because i didn't wake up at 1.30 am to study.
i can't remember if i got up to stop the alarm but the fact is i gained consciousness around 7 plus
and had the 'oh shit' feeling.
if only i had started immediately after my bath
but there was this big fat lizard in the room and i couldn't bring myself to sit there
so my mother used the com, and she takes a million years cos she will just fall asleep while typing emails.
thus i went to take a little nap
and as a result......
so today, i will finish the VJ Math Promo Paper (saved it for the finale)
my math is ok now, i think.
it's just geography that i owe an apology. so
i will finish up my Urban Geog (I'm left with Reurbanisation)
i will read my old notes on Human and Physical Geog
i will have a math tuition hat trick at 8
i will sleep at 12 (latest) and
most importantly, i accept the consequences of my actions.
Forget your sadness, anger, grudges and hatred. Let them pass like smoke caught in a breeze. You should not deviate from the path of righteousness; you should lead a life worthy of a man. Don't be possessed by greed, luxury, or your ego. You should accept sorrows, sadness and hatred as they are, and consider them a chance for trial given to you by the powers...a blessing given by nature.
- Gambatte, Masaaki Hatsumi
that you give me no reason,
you're making me work so hard
that you give me no that you give me no soul
i hear you calling
oh baby please,
give a little respect
to me
Sunday, September 23, 2007 | 10:48 AM
i am cocooned in a perfect shell
and a thread of suspension
i struggle with the gold mesh that binds my beating heart
and i cannot understand, why
below this, is hollow
but husks unwrap in a concentric circle
and my eyes are ready to close.
he has the quirky hair and the special shoes;
he has the beautiful hands.
and he teaches me to let go
and so i know the only way is to die,
i have to die
but my death is le belle mort.
what's the worst thing that could happen?
Thursday, September 20, 2007 | 8:53 PM
we could change our minds
random facts
1) EXAMS START TMR. omg, at least its GP. i wish i could say its time to PWN. but im afraid. i haven't even touched a GP handout.
2) changed my braces today! sky-blue
3) WO DE YA CHI TONG!! my teeth hurt and its not fun. HOW. exams you know!
4) tomorrow is my dearest bestie DIANE TAN YING JIE's 17th birthday! and the mighty beans + 2 taugay are going to celebrate at thaipan for lunch.
5) i need to pluck my eyebrows
6) i hate crowded trains and kiasu singaporeans and foreigners. i think we have too many.
7) i find it most productive to study at night/wee hours of the morning. i can sleep at 4 if i sleep from 12-130am.
8) i can't wait to get back my phone and my zen
9) i have no idea how to key in + on the home phone. OH DO YOU KNOW THERE'S SUCH A THING AS AN MSN CALL!? just click the phone symbol! i mean, this is such cool sht, but is it just me who's slow!?
10) like, whatever.
Thursday, September 20, 2007 | 8:53 PM
we could change our minds
random facts
1) EXAMS START TMR. omg, at least its GP. i wish i could say its time to PWN. but im afraid. i haven't even touched a GP handout.
2) changed my braces today! sky-blue
3) WO DE YA CHI TONG!! my teeth hurt and its not fun. HOW. exams you know!
4) tomorrow is my dearest bestie DIANE TAN YING JIE's 17th birthday! and the mighty beans + 2 taugay are going to celebrate at thaipan for lunch.
5) i need to pluck my eyebrows
6) i hate crowded trains and kiasu singaporeans and foreigners. i think we have too many.
7) i find it most productive to study at night/wee hours of the morning. i can sleep at 4 if i sleep from 12-130am.
8) i can't wait to get back my phone and my zen
9) i have no idea how to key in + on the home phone. OH DO YOU KNOW THERE'S SUCH A THING AS AN MSN CALL!? just click the phone symbol! i mean, this is such cool sht, but is it just me who's slow!?
10) like, whatever.
if i could be, who you wanted
Sunday, September 16, 2007 | 5:11 PM
all the time.
DAMN i love fake plastic trees! its the best song ever!
today during math tuition i have no idea why i was just SO TIRED
i was trying so so hard to keep my eyes open
and my brain kept entertaining thoughts like
what happens if i really fall asleep
like seriously my eyes were like. half closed and it was abit embarrassing
i mean. one person how to sleep right!
i really have no idea how come i became so tired all of a sudden
i even thought it was some crazy phenomena like.. bermuda triangle.
then like 3/4 through i couldnt tahan already
i got up went to the kitchen and put two polo mints in my mouth
and after that,
i was fine.
you know when you're so tired your mind blanks out and you spout rubbish?
that happens to me alot, especially if i'm real tired. so if you're talking to me
if i'm extra crappy now you know why.
i am also at this moment
PHONELESS
so please. like.
there is always offline instant messaging.
i need to cry because mrs jay hasn't gotten back to me about photo taking and like
well
she probably won't
which sucks
because HOW WILL VJ TAKE US SERIOUSLY IF WE 'RE NOT EVEN CONSIDERED A CCA
like HELLOOOOO!!!?!!?!
urgh.
and i think, i will have some explaining to do when my phone bill for this month comes
cos i mistakenly remembered that mine is a international calls plan
so i umm..
called... umm.
ULISES SANTIAGO PENA in TEXAS like OMG
hahahah.
but it was damn FUN and OMG
hello con papas!
you sound (and look) like the sex!! woots!
luckily hector didn't pick up.
he's in GEORGIA. like
imagine my bill.
faints
But i can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If i just turn and run
And it wears me out
It wears me out
It wears me out
Sunday, September 16, 2007 | 5:11 PM
all the time.
DAMN i love fake plastic trees! its the best song ever!
today during math tuition i have no idea why i was just SO TIRED
i was trying so so hard to keep my eyes open
and my brain kept entertaining thoughts like
what happens if i really fall asleep
like seriously my eyes were like. half closed and it was abit embarrassing
i mean. one person how to sleep right!
i really have no idea how come i became so tired all of a sudden
i even thought it was some crazy phenomena like.. bermuda triangle.
then like 3/4 through i couldnt tahan already
i got up went to the kitchen and put two polo mints in my mouth
and after that,
i was fine.
you know when you're so tired your mind blanks out and you spout rubbish?
that happens to me alot, especially if i'm real tired. so if you're talking to me
if i'm extra crappy now you know why.
i am also at this moment
PHONELESS
so please. like.
there is always offline instant messaging.
i need to cry because mrs jay hasn't gotten back to me about photo taking and like
well
she probably won't
which sucks
because HOW WILL VJ TAKE US SERIOUSLY IF WE 'RE NOT EVEN CONSIDERED A CCA
like HELLOOOOO!!!?!!?!
urgh.
and i think, i will have some explaining to do when my phone bill for this month comes
cos i mistakenly remembered that mine is a international calls plan
so i umm..
called... umm.
ULISES SANTIAGO PENA in TEXAS like OMG
hahahah.
but it was damn FUN and OMG
hello con papas!
you sound (and look) like the sex!! woots!
luckily hector didn't pick up.
he's in GEORGIA. like
imagine my bill.
faints
But i can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If i just turn and run
And it wears me out
It wears me out
It wears me out
i heart texas
Friday, September 14, 2007 | 3:50 AM
it is romantic to sleep at four a.m. because your body seems to be
awake in a different world
i wish blogger had locks.
playlist for lit essay:
Try - Nelly Furtado
Comfortable - John Mayer
Say What You Want - Texas
No Bravery - James Blunt
Cello Song - Nick Drake
All Good Things Come To An End - Nelly Furtado ft. Chris Martin
I'm Feeling You - Santana ft. The Wreckers
Waterfalls - TLC
Love Song For No One - John Mayer
Inner Smile - Texas
Mind Trick Remix - Jamie Cullum
Hump de Bump - RHCP
Creep - TLC
Save Me From Myself - Christina Aguilera
Tell Me 'Bout It - Joss Stone
You're Beautiful (Acoustic) - James Blunt
Sex Bomb - Tom Jones
Gotta Tell You - Samantha Mumba
I Turn To You - Christina Aguilera
Unfold - Jason Mraz
I sleep with this new girl I’m still getting used to
My friends all approve, say “She’s gonna be good for you.”
They throw me high fives.
She says the Bible is all that she reads,
and prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party,
And she swears that she’s artsy,
But you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane
Our love was comfortable and so broken in.
She’s perfect
So flawless,
Or so they say.
Hey and
Say, Heyyyyy
She’s perfect
So flawless
I’m not impressed
I want you back
Friday, September 14, 2007 | 3:50 AM
it is romantic to sleep at four a.m. because your body seems to be
awake in a different world
i wish blogger had locks.
playlist for lit essay:
Try - Nelly Furtado
Comfortable - John Mayer
Say What You Want - Texas
No Bravery - James Blunt
Cello Song - Nick Drake
All Good Things Come To An End - Nelly Furtado ft. Chris Martin
I'm Feeling You - Santana ft. The Wreckers
Waterfalls - TLC
Love Song For No One - John Mayer
Inner Smile - Texas
Mind Trick Remix - Jamie Cullum
Hump de Bump - RHCP
Creep - TLC
Save Me From Myself - Christina Aguilera
Tell Me 'Bout It - Joss Stone
You're Beautiful (Acoustic) - James Blunt
Sex Bomb - Tom Jones
Gotta Tell You - Samantha Mumba
I Turn To You - Christina Aguilera
Unfold - Jason Mraz
I sleep with this new girl I’m still getting used to
My friends all approve, say “She’s gonna be good for you.”
They throw me high fives.
She says the Bible is all that she reads,
and prefers that I not use profanity
Your mouth was so dirty
Life of the party,
And she swears that she’s artsy,
But you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane
Our love was comfortable and so broken in.
She’s perfect
So flawless,
Or so they say.
Hey and
Say, Heyyyyy
She’s perfect
So flawless
I’m not impressed
I want you back
no bravery
Thursday, September 13, 2007 | 10:40 PM
random facts that are not random
my sculpture is coming along fine,
lit essay will hopefully be okay,
my probability needs practice,
i miss talking to my beans (DAMN ALOT!)
i had fun talking to wuyue on the phone,
promos are in a week,
zakir looks like death,
zakir don't worry! don't be sad!
zamir's hair is so long that i can't even recognise him from the back,
HAHA tomorrow i MUST remember to bring someone's present,
i miss con papas! and hector!
today's lit lesson was enlightening,
i can't believe he said exactly what it was,
it was le mot juste at its best and i am utterly overwhelmed
because its so damn true.
i have alot to say
but i will not say it now.
i must say it well.
-
random convo of the day
desmond: is this your sculpture?
leanne: yeah and i'm gonna hang a foetus from here
desmond: ohhh where is it?
leanne: over there in the plastic bag
desmond goes over and picks up plastic bag, stares intently inside
desmond: what's this long thing?
elroy: to hold the thing up la (what nonsense, he doesn't even know what i'm doing)
leanne: umm no
desmond: oh. it's a boy!
leanne: AHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!
desmond: with... alot of potential
leanne: AHAHAHAHAHHA!!!! ya! not like you!
random convo of the day 2
edo shows classmates his plaster animal sculptures made of balloons
elroy: edo? are those your testicles?
edo squeezes one animal balloon he's holding
edo: OUCH OUCH!!
elroy: so which are your testicles?
leanne comes over and points
leanne: there, here.
everyone: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Thursday, September 13, 2007 | 10:40 PM
random facts that are not random
my sculpture is coming along fine,
lit essay will hopefully be okay,
my probability needs practice,
i miss talking to my beans (DAMN ALOT!)
i had fun talking to wuyue on the phone,
promos are in a week,
zakir looks like death,
zakir don't worry! don't be sad!
zamir's hair is so long that i can't even recognise him from the back,
HAHA tomorrow i MUST remember to bring someone's present,
i miss con papas! and hector!
today's lit lesson was enlightening,
i can't believe he said exactly what it was,
it was le mot juste at its best and i am utterly overwhelmed
because its so damn true.
i have alot to say
but i will not say it now.
i must say it well.
-
random convo of the day
desmond: is this your sculpture?
leanne: yeah and i'm gonna hang a foetus from here
desmond: ohhh where is it?
leanne: over there in the plastic bag
desmond goes over and picks up plastic bag, stares intently inside
desmond: what's this long thing?
elroy: to hold the thing up la (what nonsense, he doesn't even know what i'm doing)
leanne: umm no
desmond: oh. it's a boy!
leanne: AHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!
desmond: with... alot of potential
leanne: AHAHAHAHAHHA!!!! ya! not like you!
random convo of the day 2
edo shows classmates his plaster animal sculptures made of balloons
elroy: edo? are those your testicles?
edo squeezes one animal balloon he's holding
edo: OUCH OUCH!!
elroy: so which are your testicles?
leanne comes over and points
leanne: there, here.
everyone: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
xxxxxx
Saturday, September 08, 2007 | 2:42 PM
it's like you blew me
away,
gave me head,
and threw in
a mindfuck
and i
took you in,
i took you all.
it's like you
gave me wings
and set me on fire
and i
never knew
my heart was
wax.
so what is a
kiss for tomorrow.
you pass one test
and fail the rest.
shit,
you fucked me so good
but now i'm fucked up so
bad.
you act like nothing's
changed
but when we came
together
it's like you strapped it,
tight to my chest.
you push
your tongue
hard in my mouth,
and give me a day to
detonate.
Saturday, September 08, 2007 | 2:42 PM
it's like you blew me
away,
gave me head,
and threw in
a mindfuck
and i
took you in,
i took you all.
it's like you
gave me wings
and set me on fire
and i
never knew
my heart was
wax.
so what is a
kiss for tomorrow.
you pass one test
and fail the rest.
shit,
you fucked me so good
but now i'm fucked up so
bad.
you act like nothing's
changed
but when we came
together
it's like you strapped it,
tight to my chest.
you push
your tongue
hard in my mouth,
and give me a day to
detonate.
| 12:25 PM
and you know it makes me sick to be on that list,
well i should have thought of that before we kissed.
well i should have thought of that before we kissed.
FAITH
Saturday, September 01, 2007 | 11:01 AM
i think nobody has any idea how pissed off and upset i am
i hate feeling like this because it distracts me from being focused
i can't study now, seriously.
and God knows i need to.
everytime i look at my notes i just think about what i have lost
and how upset i am
this has happened before, the exact same thing i am feeling
the inability to focus and get my things done.
and look where that got me.
this is brilliant shit.
this is so beautifully f*cked up
and there is nothing i can do except try to psycho myself into thinking
that they do not affect me
i am not affected
LEANNE THEY DO NOT AFFECT YOU.
i am tired of all this.
and this might be a small thing
but i've had enough.
seriously i've had enough but there is nothing i can do
you are ruining my life
i can't believe you think you're helping
if only you knew
and if only you would understand.
restrict
space or the lack thereof
presses our bodies up and
against
the limit of my threshold
my tolerance is at the tip
of my end
and still there is no change
even after gravity is no longer
the centre
and your insides
permeate mine
there are things i cannot stand
and therefore i fall
there are battles i cannot win
and therefore i
do not fight
you don't believe that i am perfect
still
but in this dense constriction of an
undergrowth
there is suffocation
in this mass of a crowd
i find
isolation
Saturday, September 01, 2007 | 11:01 AM
i think nobody has any idea how pissed off and upset i am
i hate feeling like this because it distracts me from being focused
i can't study now, seriously.
and God knows i need to.
everytime i look at my notes i just think about what i have lost
and how upset i am
this has happened before, the exact same thing i am feeling
the inability to focus and get my things done.
and look where that got me.
this is brilliant shit.
this is so beautifully f*cked up
and there is nothing i can do except try to psycho myself into thinking
that they do not affect me
i am not affected
LEANNE THEY DO NOT AFFECT YOU.
i am tired of all this.
and this might be a small thing
but i've had enough.
seriously i've had enough but there is nothing i can do
you are ruining my life
i can't believe you think you're helping
if only you knew
and if only you would understand.
restrict
space or the lack thereof
presses our bodies up and
against
the limit of my threshold
my tolerance is at the tip
of my end
and still there is no change
even after gravity is no longer
the centre
and your insides
permeate mine
there are things i cannot stand
and therefore i fall
there are battles i cannot win
and therefore i
do not fight
you don't believe that i am perfect
still
but in this dense constriction of an
undergrowth
there is suffocation
in this mass of a crowd
i find
isolation